Second MRI

If you remember, I had gone to the ENT regarding some pressure that had been in my ear for over a year. I had mentioned to the doctor that I had recently been diagnosed with BC so he wanted to order an MRI to check to make sure nothing had spread to my head. Great! I obediently took my little anxiety pill and climbed up onto the machine. This one was different from my first MRI. I had to lie on my back with my head in a hard plastic cradle of sorts and then they put this Storm Trooper type helmet over my head. Eeek! This one definitely made me focus on Nathan and how he told me to steady and slow my breathing. I closed my eyes before they rolled me backwards into the tube so I couldn't visualize where I was. This definitely helped! They did put headphones on me which was playing my requested Popular Christian Hits on Spotify. I couldn't help but focus intently on the words to the songs so that I could try to drown out the banging and clanging that was going on inside the machine. The assuring words of Lauren Daigle belted back at me and I found peace in knowing that God was in that tube with me. (And Brian was in the waiting room waiting for me too. If I cried out one time, I know that man would break down some doors to find me!)

When I left yesterday, I had a great peace. The testing was all behind me and now I just wait for the results. I can wait. That's easier sometimes than knowing. Once I got home, I heard from my breast surgeon about the MRI results. SUCH GREAT NEWS! It was exactly as they had discovered in the mammogram. One spot of DCIS and one tiny little baby spot of invasive cancer. Nothing showed up in my right breast and nothing showed up in my lymph nodes. She discussed mastectomy and lumpectomy with radiation with me on the phone but I finally stopped her and said I wasn't ready to make decisions like that yet. I am doing lots of research and radiation (causes cancer), Tamoxifen (causes cancer), mastectomy (surgery every 15 years to replace implants and I hate the thought of a foreign object being in my body) did not at all seem like options I liked the sound of. Sooooo, I am going to be a very difficult patient and do some further research and get back to her. I think she was stunned by my words. I told her I as not going to be like her typical patient. It was as much a warning to her as it was a plea for patience. I just don't need to jump into any major decisions like this in a matter of hours or even days. I have time to make a decision that works for me (my cancer is super slow growing) and I think I have some really good options up my sleeve. If anyone is reading this, I'm sure you are thinking I am crazy right now but I also know that you know my feisty side so you probably get it a bit too. And who would have known that my Biology degree (not really) but also my passion for reading and studying health books would be such a benefit to me in this time. For such a time as this... (IYKYK: Esther in the Bible)

On a super mac daddy sweetest thing ever note.... Brian and I were at dinner last night at Table and Main and I started to get text after text saying the sender was praying for me. After about 7 of these, I finally questioned who one of the texts was from. It was the pledges of Jack's fraternity! Jack made them all send me a sweet text of encouragement as part of their pledgeship.😂 I guess the world won't see stories like this about these awesome young men but I am putting it out there because they are such great kids with the biggest hearts. It truly was a treasure in my life's treasure box!